We are back from Illinois. Nathan's funeral service was on Saturday. It was very hard, yet very hopeful at the same time. I think little Ethan summed up feelings of a lot of people...he asked if it was okay to be happy and sad at the same time...I think it is...and I am happy Nathan is in heaven with Jesus, yet I am sad, because his mommy and daddy will miss him, and because we all will miss him.

Different people spoke at the funeral, and they all talked about how Nathan taught them something.....it was very special, he had a lot of unique gifts...he taught love...he taught happiness...oh sure, he was a normal kid...but he was a very special normal kid...and I'm glad he get's to be in Jesus' lap, even as I write this.

It's been a long couple of weeks. I'm ready for things to settle down, and return to our normal day to day lives. If you can call our lives normal with toddlers...but you know what I mean. I think my emotions have been on such a huge roller coaster lately, I think the train needs a rest at the station, so to speak :)

**funny story about the girls....we were in the van today, Kurt ran in to the hardware store..Kimmi was playing a little joke on Becca, hiding her toy, then pulling it out, etc...and all of a sudden Becca goes...."You're a stitch Kimmi"...oh my goodness....does she even know that that means?? It was so funny!! I laughed so hard...

Then tonight, the girls fell asleep downstairs, so Kurt and I carried them up, and after we tucked them in, (they didn't wake up), Kimmi started giggling...it was so cute..she was really giggling...I wonder what was so funny in her dreams?

Well....speaking of dreams...it's late, so I'm going to go to bed!!