What's up...

Well, contrary to popular belief, I am not a russian spy :) lol.... funny!!

We are in a fight friends.... a fight for my identity, a fight for Tori and a fight for Cameron. We are not having an easy time of it! The county social workers are being so, so...I just can't even think of the words right now.

I've never felt so judged, and i'm not talking little stuff....they are throwing some pretty harsh things at me!! We have lost Tori. Between the work of her social worker, whom I can name names, because it's my blog, and I can....her social worker Kris feels that this placement will fall apart, and to help her opinion along, she enlisted the help of Tori's therapist, (if you can call her that, since she's not actually a real therapist) Linda, to convince Tori that she needed a "break" to help her figure things out....well, the break turned into a suicide attempt, which turned into a hospitalization, which has now turned in to her being placed into a transition home until she can be put in a residental pyschiatric facility. Yeah...so much more to that..

Then, Cameron's social worker, Abby, is fairly new, he was her first case, when we had him a year ago...well, she has become Kris's parrot!! So, she is unable to make a decision for herself, without checking it out with Kris first. We are still in the possible running to adopt Cameron, but they are making it as difficult as possible!

This is just a snapshot of what's going on....Kurt is meeting with the Director of Social Services either on Friday or Monday, and hopefully he will launch a full investigation into how we have been treated etc.

Our goal isn't to seek revenge, or push things through that shouldn't be, or get our way..it's to send a message that it's unfair to treat people this way, and the best interest of the children isn't necessarily what they have been looking out for. They have made some mistakes, and now they are looking for someone to blame, and the blame happens to be shot at me. It's coming close to slander!!

In other news, if you havn't already heard, Kurt has resigned as Pastor of our church. Sunday will be our last day. We are not leaving on bad terms or anything like that...it's just his vision for "church" in general is changing....big....and we want to do, and experience the things of God in a way that our little church just didn't seem interested in. We currently don't have another church we are seeking out, as I said, his view's on church have changed dramatically. One of his possibilites is going back to school, which I think is great!

It's hard that everything has kinda just developed at once...timing could have been better with some of this stuff...but oh well, God knows...and I know He is faithful, and will carry us through this.

Thank you for being patient....for being interested in what I have to say.....

I love you guys!!!!