I find that there are a few things that are really bugging me with Tori. I don't know how to figure it out in my head, that I don't have to worry about her anymore..that my opinion on her life doesn't matter....and there are things that I certainly don't approve of, that we didn't allow her to do while she lived here, that she is currently doing...it's like the moment she left, she has just gone down the list of things she couldn't do before, but now has the freedom to do.
Among other things......
I just don't know how to regulate my feelings.....
3 comments:
Kari, you need to know that you gave Tori loads of love when she was at your house, and as she grows that will speak volumes to her. God had her with you for a season, FOR A PURPOSE. It's hard to know what His purpose was/is, but trust that He had a purpose. Even the kids you gave birth to may someday do things that you never approved of. Place them all, your birth kids and your foster kids, in His hands and trust Him to take care of them, even when it seems like it isn't going as it should. It's the hardest thing you'll ever do - and the best.
Hi Kari,
We were foster parents once and went through some things as well with the system. Understand it is the "worlds" system not God's which explains much about how it operates, and also the deception and such that is part of it. Good people are even part of the system, but our battle is against the spiritual forces not the people. It is difficult on many fronts, but know that God works good for those who love Him. Getting through and not going around the mountain will be a reality. He will take you through the valley of the shadow of death. Taking every thought captive into the obedience of Christ is of course simple, but not so easy, yet, God gives us this strategy to allow us to be active in going through our difficult times. It is true what Nancy said, that even your own birth children will do things you don't allow them to do. It is the devil's ploy to make you feel distraught when kids do things you know are not good for them, when you taught them and protected them from such things. Imagine how our Heavenly Father feels when we do those things or don't do those things He has taught us? Take it to the Lord in prayer and stay there, leave the things there with Him, over and over again, until you gain victory. The battle is tough, but you are on the winning side.
Kari,
I am so blessed by the sound, scriptual, loving comments your friends have made. A hearty "Amen" from here!
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