So.....

Some thoughts about my weight.... I hit rock bottom, because of a belt! Yes, you read that right, a belt! I've been looking for a belt, for my favorite jeans f-o-r-e-v-e-r!! I finally found one!!! (this is not an easy task when you are as heavy as I am) So, it's Sunday morning, before church, I'm all excited to wear my new belt, and my favorite jeans, when I come to the realization that said amazing belt is too BIG to fit in the belt loops on said favorite jeans. Heartbreak!!! Silly?? Maybe, but it opened my eyes to see that I can no longer let this continue!! I cried out to God, please, please help me with this. He has answered!! I have some amazing friends around me, supporting me, encouraging me, loving me.... It seems the moment I tell myself I'm on a "diet", I get hungry. Not just a little, but starving, and craving everything I see!! So, I'm not on a "diet". I'm choosing what I eat more carefully. I'm making myself more aware of what's in my choices. Is it work? Yes, not gonna lie. But like I said....I can't let this continue. There are too many things I want to do, and this weight is holding me back. I don't like "not liking" me.